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philosophy
an
exploration
of
meaning
within
meaning
now
don't
break
those
bounds !
extraordinary !
heraclitus
and
branes !
an
object
out
of
what
is
not
an
object
is
a
problem
at
best
it's
a
potential
bad neural prunings
who
takes
it
worse
female
or
male ?
monster
beautiful
woman
autistic
nightmare !
the
aridity
of
the
steppes
you
have
stopped
short
you
may
understand
it
or
you
mightn't
todays
writers
crippled
malnourished
brains
blahhh!!!
there's
no
balm
like
a
possum
brain !
when
we
look
back
how
shattering
life
is !
coming
in
so
late
to
never
be
normal
i'll
never
fit !
socialism
a
incredibly
cruel
pain
in
the
arse
system
where
a
few
men
rule
and
everyone
else
suffers
the
curtailment
of
opportunity
and
the
abandonment
of
hope
by
there's
no-
one
to
have
a
conversation
with
i
already
have
everything
i
wouldn't
mind
a
sensible
conversation
with
some-one
occasionally
crave
it
even
but
it's
just
not
possible
writing
to
myself
is
the
only
way
it
occurs
we
prefer
insanity
to
sense
that's
why
it
occurs
insanity
yet
it's
the
failure
of
sense
within
insanity
that
leads
to
the
breaking
of
boundaries
and
the
seepage
of
infinity
into
insanity
when
some-one
leaves
even
for
a
little
while
it's
a
death
death
is
all
around
us
an
exercise
in
something
the
egoic
british
upper
class
twit
restraint ?
you
can
correct
everyone
else
or
let
them
make
the
mistakes
and
reap
a
reward
yourself
the
us
army
and
airforce
need
an
unit
yes
vaccines
anti -
nerve
gas
agents
and
other
modern
benefits
the
world's
biggest
industry
is
women
changing
how
they
appear
to
men
paid
for
by
men
of
course
; o )
humans
must
always
have
lived
quite
violent
lives
because
we
are
designed
to
lose
so
much
blood
charles
bukowski
was
he
holy ?
no
was
he
a
saint ?
no
was
he
autistic
YES !
when
i
have
finished
writing
it
looks
like
there
is
nothing
more
to
come
or
ever
come
again
but
it
comes
again !
if
quantum
space
is
real
then
it
has
some
answers
or
maybe
it
has
none
because
there
are
none
i'm
not
even
sure
there
was
a
question !
charles
bukowski
was
a
true
gave
his
life
to
illustrate
it's
fundamentals
for
you
and
me
that
is
he
lived
it
harder
than
he
need
have
for
little
joy
you
may
have
lost touch
with
space
happens
it
has
happened
to
me
it
is
always
there
when
you
return
to
it
the
question
is
wether
the
commercial
side
of
writing
is
such
a
different
area
of
that
wether
you
are
better
to
just
write
for
to
the
people
who
like
kitsch
it
doesn't
look
like
kitsch !
medicine is
good
for
operations
it
is
NOT
good
for
diet
i
never
understood
kitsch
as
some
sort
of
intellectual
limitation
but
i
think
it
is
when
you
look
at
the
hormonal
changes
a
woman
goes
through
wanting
sex
you
realise
they
are
not
rational
beings
writing
trying
to
make
an
empty
waste
of
time
real
bit
of
a
fucking
waste
of
time
the
humans
have
such
a
narrow
window
of
aliveness
to
new
ideas
by
about
14
its
all
over
who
knows
i
don't
know
do
you
know ?
americans
just
think
you
are
a
sucker
if
you
give
your
time
free
for
anything
estradiol
is
a
stem
cell
therapy
you
might
like
to
think
you
have
done
something
in
your
life
but
we
have
done
nothing
silence
of
the
night
swallows
everything
is
anything
original ?
holbein - erasmus's hands ca. 1523
escher 1948
i
don't
think
i'm
in
the
business
of
trying
to
beat
sanity
into
anyone
tho
they
seem
to
do
nothing
except
beat
insanity
into
me
i
used
to
think
somethings
mattered
but now
i
don't
think
they
do
it's
hard
to
accept
we
die
but
we
do
peace
is
something
that
occurs
in between
wars
when you look at it it's a really smooth 2000 year old advert, they know what they are doing
it's
safer
in
boundaries
but
life
and
infinity
leaks
in
and
needs
to
be
aired
or
it
gets
toxic
there's
a huge
amount of
damage
that occurs
with
the
involvement
in
zen
and
most
likely
you (richard and charlotte)
will
never
see
it
but
you
are
walking
wounded
there's
what
people
say
and
there's
the
way
they
behave
: o )
the
feral
kitten
walking
up
the
path
have
any
question
about
who
you
are ”
well
i'm
certainly
not
a
child
prodigy !
i'm
an
adult
idiot
i
think
often
prodigies
are
not
genuinely
creative
intelligences
somewhat
derivative
spirituality
is
a
fiction
there
is
no
journey
there
is
no
reason
only
takes
you
so
far
and
in
the
wrong
direction
if
it's
wrong
there
are
all
sorts
of
different
perspectives
that
are
true
but
they
are
not
there's
no
audience
but
myself
it's
taken
me
a
long
while
to
be
healed
of
zen
longer
of
christianity
even
poetry
i
guess
which
can
only
be
remedied
by
writing
your
own
john
of
the
cross
is
a
poisonous
fart
like
dogen
leaving
a
toxic
wake
across
the
centuries
bit
like
atomic
fallout
actually
human
behavior
is
an
open
feedback
loop
of
reproduction
before
you
have
a
total
disaster
you
generally
get
a
few
warnings
as well as being schizophrenic
man he's got good dress sense, check out that photo
its really funny, you can see totally how gay he is in that photo
i have no sympathy for the catholic church, you just have to look at the way they treated giordano bruno
the tongue piercing muzzle at the end is a particularly brutal touch
ratzinger's old job was head of what used to be the inquisition
was
the
moon
i
ask ?
in
icicles
and
breathing
cobwebs
it
grows
old
men
have
macro
focus
women
have
micro
people
who
are
famous
too
young
get
impaired
in
some
way
distracted ?
too
much
viral
contact ?
there's
something
between
the
ears
i'm
not
sure
it's
grey
matter
reading
somethings
is
like
a
puzzle
you
write
a
poem
or
homily
to
solve
it
it
is
necessary
to
touch
as
well
as
see
unceasing
madness
the
world !
why
is
there
meaninglessness
rather
than
meaning ?
endless
twitism
the
paycheck
coming
buddy
and
no-body
will
be
hurt ! ”
it's
amazing
what
you
remember
over
the
years
i
think
toni
packer
made
a
few
mistakes
she
missed
out
on
something
actually
me
maybe
she
didn't
its
amazing
what
the
fear
of
losing
what
we
have
does
to
us
it's
not
wrong
space
be
as
full
of
illusions
as
reality
the
iron
rod
of
discernment
never
softens
no
matter
where
you
are
who
wants
to
change
the
world
its
all
doomed
that
ruin
enables
the
beauty
one
generation
follows
the
next
a
new
misguiding
when
you
get
to
the
end
of
the
road
and
there's
no -
one
there
it's
sorta
surprising
but
how
could
there
be
anyone
there ?
you
have
been
shedding
them
all
the
way
in
how
can
you
write
with
another
person
in
the
room ?
a
sparrow
is
smarter
than
any
human
when
it
comes
to
flying
where
there
is
a
crowd
you
should
be
suspicious
it's
a
bit
distressing
to
have
a
semi -
unique
name
in
a
small
country
to
find
that
the
world
is
full
of
them !
there
is
something
beautiful
about
men
giving
their
lives
to
women
a
the
quality
time
is
spent
the
healthy
look
at
the
unhealthy
and
think
am
supreme
the
catholic
church
destroyed
itself with vatican II
the
information
that
comes
out
of
the
media
on
health
varies
from
polarly
opposite
wrong
to
plain
stupid
to
mildly
right
and
generally
it's
the
first
two
why
men
even
go
near
women
is
beyond
me
it's
like
a
mouse
walking
in
front
of
a
cat
a
a
being
specialised
for
your
too many
other
lives
on
the
net
don't
get
involved !
everything
autistic
is
always
coming
together
and
breaking
apart
you
need
to
manage
the
breaking
apart
so
it
occurs
in
a
fruitful
manner
there's
a
lot
of
power
in
memory
people
by
and
large
are
ratbags
and
to
kill
yourself
for
them
is
not
good
everyone
thinks
i
am
M A D
what
is
god
is
there
any
more
ultimate
reality
than
this
world ?
communism
was
born
in
the
failures
of
rabbinical
belief
and
russian
orthodox
christianity
what
an
unholy
child !
buddhism
derives
its
reality
from
the
historical
figure
of
buddha
if
buddha
is
a
fiction
then
so
is
buddhism
i
am
not
going
to
argue
with
the
unwashed
there
is
any
amount
of
them
and
some
are
killers
there's
two
levels
of
influence
one
where
they
sing
your
praises
because
what
you
write
is
not
overpowering
enough
to
be
competition
and
two
when
they
plagarize
and
steal
everything
you
have
double
dosing
the
disinfectant
in
the
washing
only
to
discover
a
bit
of
turd
in
the
washing
afterwards
can
i
say
contradiction ?
sometimes
i
wonder
then
i
wonder
again
and
wonder
again
just
about
everything
we
do
is
full
of
contradictions
all
we
have
to
do
is
look
a
bit
wider
but
we
don't
teenage
girls
are
wolves
consuming
with
infatuation
most
religion
or
all
religion
is
in
fact
atheism
they
do
not
see
and
what
they
believe
is
contrary
to
sense
and
sanity !
i
don't
believe
in
god
i
see
god
i
know
what
god
is
this
is
one
of
the
autistic
gifts
i
think
the
idea
of
writing
for
others
is
false
or
half
false
you
need
to
be
writing
for
yourself
as
much
as
others
maybe
properly
more
for
your
yourself
endless
is
a
stage
in
life
you
reach
where
everything
is
just
endless
and
goes
on
and
on
and
you
have
lost
the
unknown
i think
you
end
up
with
a
defined
quantity
unlike
the
indefinite
nature
of
a
life
in
youth
endless
what
is
the
character
of
your
endless
i
am
surprised
to
be
me
if
you
saw
god
you
wouldn't
be
fretting
about
evolution
better for a river to find its own banks than be blocked off !
alaine
de
botton
he
means
well
but
is
not
up
to
par
i
am
afraid
he's
in
the
wrong
paradigm
- breeding -
himself
proust,
nietzsche and me
: o )
are
autistic
that's
the
right
paradigm !
it's
like
there
is
no
criticism
any
more
the
most
horrendous
misalignments
and
misdirections
are
permitted
to
go
past
without
comment
everything
must
be
sacrificed
to
the
emotional
comfort
zone
of
the
offender
whatever
happened
to
robustness
don't
ask
it
died !
richard
von
sturmer
zen
ruined
him
as
a
writer
replaced
his
own
observations
with
spiritual
pap!
unmated
women
have
a
view
of
men
like
this
is
my
ox ?
my
family
tells
me
my
brother
is
doing
a
creative
writing
course
no
mention
of
my
writings !
i
have
always
thought
it
vastly
preferable
to
pretend
to
do
something
than
actually
do
something !
americans
have
the
apocalypse
syndrome
bred
into
their
blood
leonardo
da
vinci
endlessly
driven
forward
into
death
it's
very
hard
to
improve
the
work
of
another
pain
there
is
no
why
it
occurs
migraine
spending
half
your
life
feeling
like
warmed
over
shit
it
hurts
to
work
or
be
under
the
control
of
smaller
minds
than
your
own
he's one of the really great philosphers
it's interesting to
consider that plato and aristotle who are regarded as great are in fact second rate
and me
i can see it more clearly now
the difference is i deliberately incorporate reality
that is reality is part of my self image
which is why people freak out about me
they expect self image and touch reality
and
that
hurts
them
you
can
be
viral
because
you
have
a
virus
but
you
can
also
be
viral
because
your
innate
immune
system
has
woken
up
to
something
affection
and
violence
go
together
strong
affection
can
be
strongly
violent
when
disrupted
sex
etc.
what
is
it ?
what's
the
big
deal ?
bukowski
etc
whats
the
point ?
why ?
doctors
have
very
mediocre
minds !
male
and
over
50
joint,
prostate
issues
what
else ?
unemployable ?
it's
just
like
the
holocast
you
wake
up
and
there's
no-one
there
up
guru
josh
there
has
to
be
some
limitation
to
everything
unending
unceasing
returning
a circular
train
that
never
stops
except
it
has
eileen
you
are
like
me
you
get
so
upset
about
things
no-one
else
gives
a
fig
about
the
grief
of
being
an
individual
instead
of
working
like
a
mad
dog
why
not
just
do
nothing ?
at
some
point
you
have
to
stop
back
when
the
feral
kitten
bounces
away
i
think
at
all
that
good
cartilage !
youth
that
little
illusion
of
certainty
women
who
are
uninentionally
self
destructive
for
want
of
an
overall
view
i
am
always
taking
wrong
roads
just
about
every
wrong
road
there
is
and
there's
a
few !
i
am
not
settling
down
to
old
age
incapacitation
and
dying
i
am
going
to
be
fighting
all
the
way !
sometimes
i
feel
sorry
for
myself
a
sort
of
pathetic
sad
sack
in
life
a
vision
of
eileen
metamorphosing
into
my
mother !
the
net
and
computers
is
very
fractal
you
unpack
something
reconstruct
it
then fold
it
away
again
it's
a
new
paradigm
